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Happy New year! This is first year I have a wife with me, previously only have gf . Planned to go count down at AutoCity just now, but my honey was not feeling well, she need to rest earlier, slept at 11.30. Dont know what happen, just few days in new house then she start to get sick ready, today also not manage to go meeting at her new school. Maybe she is too tired lately with house renovation, clean up, wedding, honeymoon, and then move to Penang. I am online alone at family hall Nevertheless, I still remember to walk into the bedroom to give her a new year kiss on 12am. Firework outside had wake her up anyway. Going to sleep ready, happy new year. May year 2009 bless everybody with good luck!

Many thing is not going right. Working life not smooth, gf unhappy, reason -> unknown. For sometimes I had been like sleeping at average 5 hours + per day. At 2am++ i still working at Mamak stall, house 3G connection is not fast enough for more aggresive work. Sometimes really tired at office, hard to concentrate on work, walking here and there, many people might thought I am very free. Result still such a mess, every miles stone also I am delaying and gating people progress, damn it. Fiance seem like going hard time too, not sure what is the exact reason, she just keep silent. Make me more worry. But I have no time to go back too :( 

Parit Jawa is the place where I born. Nothing much there but there is a Jetty. Many people work as fisherman but not for my family. I bring my gf here for some photo shooting. Hehe.. dont look down at this place, even though it is nothing special but many couples come here for pre-wedding photo shooting as well.

This tree located beside a mamak stall where we always yam cha since form two. Even now, i still gather with my old friends at this place. It carried a lot of memory.

Following picture are all taken at A Farmosa, not Parit Jawa. Just feel like put it in same blog. I just took few of them while on the way back to my Tampin.

A song to share. Found this song some times ago. Cannot link it here, but can link it to youtube

http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=HCeS-yorGtc

Artist: A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images

No

Well, I’d never want to see you unhappy
I thought you’d want the same for me

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should’ve known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you’re gone and I’m haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

[Chorus]
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I’m trying not to think about you
Can’t you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you’d bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

Well, this should be an Indian Graduation Ceremony. I guess so, not too sure. Indeed i don’t know them, one of them should be my friend’s friend’s friend i think :D.

Yeah. I just some for to see their ceremony and come for some photo shooting. It was held at Dewan Sri Pinang. Last for ~3 hours.

I never know how to shoot those event actually. After the shooting session and upload my photo to laptop…aiya!! all of them also "kayu-kayu" one….. don’t know how to choose good angle. But never mind la… process of learning… hehe.

Actually sitting at a bit distance from the stage and the stage is quite low light; Not easy to shoot as well, low light, long distance, dancer are moving fast. But some picture still ok, not too blur, acceptable range for stage shot with low light. I didn;t move around, nothing special I get this time. More like a practicing session :p

More picture at http://esee.deviantart.com/

That day I woke up 3.50am, as we are gathering at 4.30am. It is torturing, i just slept 3 hours. 88 members joining the outing, split into 2 school bus. My Bus is real terrible, the air-con is real suck, imagine at 5am we already feel hot. it took us 3.5 hours to reach our destinations, Puncak Janing. A place I never heard before. That is a forest with a small waterfall and some big trees. The outing is good, the on the way back it is torturing. That stupid bus let me sauna for 3.5 hours. Damn it.

More photo at http://esee.deviantart.com

Whenever i told my friend that i am the youngest son. They always said I am the luckiest one as my parent will pampas me the most. Honestly whenever i hear this reply, i just feel like crying.

Just forgetting about the youngest son, I still feel that i didn’t get the love I suppose to get. But actually i cannot say this, as there is no such thing called "love suppose to get". I didn’t get it as i not deserve it maybe.

Last week I went back home as usual. After some discussion, my mom indirectly tell me that I am the worst son she had compare to my sibling. I don’t know whether that is true, but from her point of view, the answer is definitely true.

I think there is a bug on women when GOD makes them. Just like when you like a gal, if she like you, everything you do is sweet. If she don’t like you, every sweet thing you did is disgusting no matter how sweet it is.  To my parent, no matter what i did, I am still the worst son they even had, maybe not too bad, but relatively bad.

Should I doing all the wrong things just to pleasure them. Follow the wrong opinion they have, just to be a good son?  Or I have to following whatever is right, and just let them think that i am the worst son they ever had?

For my friends, many of them think that i am emotional and pessimistic. Some of them might even think that people like me not worth a single cent. All these comments going into my ear but I not gonna comment anything. What i can said is sometimes you won;t be able to use your own experience of life to judge someone life.

My friends always said i didn’t; appreciate the good life i have. Even it is not a good life also i should appreciate whatever I have. I called my mom just now, again i feel like i am really like a grass. And now, I should appreciating my life as a grass. As that is my life, and many of my friend said i should appreciate it.

In my life, i give up so many things i so unwillingness to give up, and I scarified so many things i so wish to have.  For what i do this? Many of them indeed are not for myself.

This is nice outing. Above picture is my personal favorite. That 2 person is not model, they are there to take picture just like me, but become my model in this particular picture:)

The outing begin with some disappointments but end up to be a wonderful outing. Well, we reach Balik Pulau at 5pm, then we reach our real destination at around 6pm. Today we have a sunny afternoon but lighting at evening is a bit disappointed. Too cloudy as well indicating that there will be no sunset:(

This is the place for our outing. Emmm…. obviously it is not a good day. But everybody still try hard to capture some photos. At around 6.40pm, it starting to rain, everybody packing and force to go back. Quite disappointed. But while we are on the our way back, we see wonderful sunset on the way, some members had stop their cars at roadside and begin capturing photo again. Our car find a nice place to park and have a nice view of sunset. They call it little Genting, i not sure what is the real name of that place. This is not a nice place to capture sunset but dust is very nice. Sky is very colorful. We can see red, orange, yellow, green, blue and purple color in a nice mixture. Wonderful color. For some reason i not able capture those green color element properly, nothing can be share on that.

See the color tone of sky, it is real nice.

This is another one. No wonder my teacher said sunset is not that nice, after sunset is nicer. Now i have to agree, as dust have more color tones compare to sunset which only have hot color element.

Emmm… I should ask someone sit there, now it seem a bit too abstract with an empty chair. Like something is missing.

A tower and a tree

Penang view from Balik Pulau. I like this picture as well. The sky look very evil, like the scene I saw in Lord of Ring ~The Two Tower, hehe. Hey..this picture i took with shutter 1/4 seconds and I took it with my hand, no tripod being used, hehe. Seem like I can hold my camera pretty steady :p

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This is a photo outing trip, short trip but quite tiring as well. Saturday I waked up at 4am, Sunday I have to waked up at 6am, and I reach Penang 10pm on Sunday. Good thing about photo outing is everyone have the same purpose, no one will rush me to keep moving, plenty of time for taking photo :).

No time to manage my photos, just picking some of them for sharing. But indeed many rubbishes inside my camera, bad thing about digital camera, always take more, hehe.

A special even organized by Thailand Tourism Dept.

Someone was giving speech at this moment. But all photographers were running around to take photo. Why? Emmm..no one understand Thai, hehe.

A memorable childhood.

This is the restaurant where we have our dinner. Nice place with nice environment by the lake, you cannot find in Penang. But too many "flying creatures", make us a bit unconfortable, maybe it is too natural, hehe.

Something special at Phatthalung.

Sunrise at Phatthalung.

We are getting 15 boats to bring us around the lake for photo shooting.

A different experience.

Someone told me this is world biggest lotus lake. Not sure whether it is true.

Getting hot and time to go back.